Caffeine Overdose

Caffeine Overdose

You had me in a moment, with this thing that you call "love"

I was dizzy with excitement, naïve and silly

Like an infant enjoying her first taste of caffeine

Intoxicated I believed you, for the first time

Living in a world of reciprocated emotion

Every song was mine, every lyric penned by my own hand

Prufrock had my pity, and Wordsworth was my brother,

But the only words worth my time were yours

Spoken in clichés, you indulged my tendency

For idealism, worthless in a world where stomachs swell,

And the living dead roam, automated, oiled regularly by reality

The only one to know me inside out, I gave in

To the brighter colours, warmer days, grass that smelt

Of joyous worms rejoicing, insects smiled

As I avoided mass murder with a wary step

And cupped them up, embraced them

But they stung me with their acid kiss.

I live to learn, I learn to live.

But Calculus is easier on the heart, and Eliot

Can move me without crisply crunching me

Crunching me beneath his feet to smithereens,

Like the last brown leaf of Indian winter.

I fell from the tree and you picked me up,

I thought I was saved when you savoured me

Traced my green veins and breathed in my essence,

But you left me to dehydrate, wither, and tremble

As trade winds picked up my wisps and blew them

Hither and thither.

When the cup has been drained and lies broken on the floor,

The infant cries for more, although every sip is poison.